change.

i am officially a student at tcc as of 5 o'clock today. im actually kind of excited about it, i will be taking a history class this summer and i think it will be good for me, i think it will give me a good idea of how its going to be next year when i am there full time. as much as i really hate the fact that i am going there and staying home for another year (most likely two) instead of being able to go away to college, i am very thankful that God provided the grant money for me to go there. my mother would be screwed if it wasnt all paid for. but anyways i still think it is strange that i am now a college student, i dont feel like one at all. im sure thats how everyone is feeling right now. and i have no idea what i am going to do once everyone leaves for college, if you're friends with me im sure you hear me whine about this all the time haha but i truly am concerned about it. i like being comfortable; being comfortable with my school, my friends, my job, God even, i really struggle with change. i guess i doubt myself that i will be able to handle new things and new people, new relationships, deeper relationships, and that includes with God. i struggle with trusting Him that He will take care of me and help me through the changes that i go through. i have so much pride in thinking that i can take care of myself, which is the biggest joke of all time, that i fail to surrender myself to God and let Him take over. My life would be so much more exciting if i allowed God to take over and do what He wanted with me. So now that i am able to process through all of this as i am typing, clearly God has big plans for me at tcc, and i believe He is going to teach me some amazing things about myself and otehr things im sure and i should be completely stoked about it. i AM completely stoked about it! my life is going to change tremendusly in the next few months and i couldnt be more excited (thats what i keep making myself believe anway..ha)



"Just remember, wherever you go.....there you are."

haha funny quote from my dad. it makes me laugh everytime.

peer pressure.

because of sarah and kenzie, i am now back into this whole blogging business. so pretty much who ever reads this, other than kenzie and sarah, i apoligize in advance for rambling on and on about stuff im sure no one else cares about other than me.

ill start this thing off by discussing what went on today..

i went over to kenzie's house where i joined her and a few other people from her church for small groups. there we discussed some of the different traditions that church of christ's and baptists partake in, like the whole baptism thing and communion, differences between music and thoughts on all of these events. i think that so many christians get to caught up in the idea of what they "think" is the correct way to be a christian. what i mean by that is that they think that if they fail to follow what they have grown up thinking they are supposed to do, then they will not enter the kingdom of God. i think that many of us have a mixed up perception of how God works. i think that we are all so concerned about what denomination we are and what traditions we need to abide by, that we miss out on what is really important; furthering the kingdom of God. i wish the whole idea of "religion" was thrown out the window, that way we could focus on setting examples for non believers instead of arguing about when the service should take place, what kind of music should be played, how we do baptisms, etc. it all depends on where the heart is when worship takes place.

well anyways, thats it for now. im sure you are so glad you took teh time to read this haha NOT.